I think i just made the wrong title. ^^
Anyway, work-related and prejudice-related.
In this place, i am a bit unkind to Caucasians (understatement of the century), and prejudiced with Native Speakers as a whole.
I am, however, working my way around it as i have mentioned it before: It's not something i want to live by. I hate the fact that i, not just roll my eyes at the sight of an NS or a Caucasian, i actually flinch, and hear the whizzing of my pea-sized brain.
Be as it may, i have started working and there was an NS among the staff, a caucasian man, nevertheless.
Progress 1: I didn't roll my eyes.
Progress 2: I didn't flinch.
Progress 3: We even had a small talk. ^^
Juvenile? Yes, but to me this is progress. I still have this boundary issue, physically, and socially. The mere fact that i was able to stay in a room with an NS is an ordeal. To talk without being hostile? That's another.
I think i know what i want for my birthday: NS's as guests. See where my prejudice lies, and if i would be able to fight it.